It could be great

Subject:	this, its over
Time:	3:57 pm.
Mood:	crazy.
Music:	happy birthday lisa.

My birthday is finally over, i dont mean finally as a bad thing even though it sounds wrong in my head. I miss my birthday all ready. It was fun. Sat around the house. But was first woken up by a delievery man. He brought me edible arrangments. They are so yummy. Strawberrys dipped in chocolate. Omygosh. err i only have 2 left though with makes a girl sad. I went to out to dinner with my mom, scott and brian. Yummy jap food. Afterwards when we came outside everything was covered in snow. So me and brian went to get jess o so she could spend one last night at my house before she moved to la. Yippie for jess. The night was good. we watched lots of sex in the city and played the board game mike and brian got me. the sex in the city trivia game. I also got the cure dvd set, which i havent watched yet but cant wait to.lets see what else did i get like 500 in chash. Um a 100 gift card to sam goody. oo. yes i cant wait to buy some new shit. But shit i really need like seat covers and cleaning the car, and other stuff. Gotta jet, time to work out. <3

lipstick.

Time:

11:16 pm.

Two halves are equal
A cross between two evils
It's not an enviable lot
But if you listen
You'll learn to hear the difference
Between the halfs and the half nots

And when i let him in i feel my stitches getting sicker
I try to wash him out but like she said:the blood is thicker
I see my mother in my face
But only when i travel
I run as fast as i can run
But
Jack comes tumbling after....

lipstick.

Subject:	hit me from the backside
Time:	2:37 am.

i went and saw the dresden dolls the other day. They were so amazing. i was so excited to go. i havent felt that way in so long. ive known about them for alittle a year but never really got into them until the summer. They were so amazing live. the best band. One of my favorites. I hate when a band is good on their cds but not live. But they were better live. They made me really happy.

i really want to go to http://www.coachella.com/
but most likely will not because its so far away. But i might. i want to go last year and swore i would try to go this year. I wanna camp there. That would be so rad.

im at a very happy point in my life. Everything is going really good i just need to make up my mind about school. I think i know what i want to do. But i try and only talk about school stuff with jill because i know no matter what i say. she wont say things like well you will have no money there and it will be really hard and you have to be really good to get into that school. She will say go for it. and that makes me happy because she has faith in me no matter what. This excludes my boyfriend because he is great with everything i say.

but im gonna go read now. I got this new book by karen brichoux she is amazing. If you need something good to read. get her book coffe and kung fu. My favorite book. Its not what you would expect form the tittle. People have sex on and boat it was hard to put the book down at times because parts were random and thats what i like.

1 cheap napkin lipstick.

Subject:	long time no see
Time:	11:51 pm.
Mood:	amused.
Music:	the pixies-hey.

havent written in a really long time. Im still alive. not dead. no dead.

Things have been really crazy. I got a new computer for christmas so. It has been fun playing on it. Its always fun getting a new computer because its like a new adventure. I know thats sad to say. But when you are on the computer alot or use it for work. It really becomes its own person. Its wierd. i miss my old computer alot. Almost like its a friend that just moved to cali for work. I ustew feel the same way about dolls. Getting a new one and not sleeping with the certain favorite. seeing it in the middle of the night on the floor and just feeling this sadness coming from it.

randomness out of the way.

I missed this alot just being able to say whatever the fuck i want. I feel like a queen. Fuck. Well Recently my boyfriend moved in with my sort of. Because he got kicked out of his house. Its very comforting in alot of ways. Hes always here for me. ALways helping me along the path of life. But i dont get to do things like this. write my life away. It feel good to have this night alone. But i do miss him alot. i found myself walking in circles around my room thinking what should i do next, take a bath or write or watch girl movies or play a game? hmmm
ive never had to feel like i had to pack everything into one night.

I need to get a new job. one where i work more. im working friday but the last time i worked was before christmas. New job for moving out into my own place. I cant wait. its gonna be so much fun. I can sit naked in my room and paint and dance around. And fill a bath tub up with pasta. And make and ice skating rink in my backyard. Eeeee i get so excited thinking about it.

well i gotta go finish my girls alone just me night.

Do you ever feel like you want something more exciting to happen. like become a rock star?

3 cheap napkins lipstick.